One of the virtues that have eternally and will always encouraged believers to hold onto God tenaciously, even in the face of seeming extreme hopelessness and despair, is His ability to change the most unpleasant conditions to favourable testimonies. May be, you've done everything humanly possible to get out of that situation and all to no avail. Unfortunately, all you seem to have after all your efforts are - sorrow, pain, regrets, grief, shame and tears. And, it's like, you're tempted to query the love and even the existence of God. Don't yet. Just read this book first. God is still in the business of turning ashes into beauty.