This is a collection of work I had written during the lowest time in my life, my mid twenties. Though I was successful in business, I loved the way I looked, and I had an amazing support system, I still managed to find hope in the wrong situations and ended up hurting myself more. I filled my own head with romantic ideas and fantasies, and was very disappointed when reality hadn't played out the same way. This book includes suicide ideation, foul language, mentions of substance abuse, and a view into how the mind thinks under a cloud of anxiety and depression.