In this book Author Chantay Harris shares her tragic story of her challenges as a teen into adulthood. Her challenges that eventually turned into lessons in her life that could have torn her apart at the very seams that were created to help her to survive. Little did she know that a mother's hate was not love. This book was written to help other young girls and women to see their lives of pain in another way. That pain is just that "a 4-letter word". We all experience it. However, in this true story of a teen girl who went through so much pain that it was hard for her to see or experience nothing but that up until she aged to fifty. Pain followed her life through every door and every relationship. No relationship was more important than the love of her mother. How do you live through the very things that you never even knew existed in a very young life? Well, the struggle to survive is one that will capture your heart. Angels are real and she is living proof.