Bed of Rose's: HSDD, Infidelity, Menopause, and Me

Hypoactive Sexual Desire Disorder (HSDD... yes, I'm finally giving up, because the DSM has declared HSDS - Hypoactive Sexual Desire Syndrome - doesn't exist. Only HSDD. Funny... if they can make something cease existing, you'd think the least they could do is make me feel like I want to have sex once in a while... or thinking a sexy thought... or getting a stupid off-color joke without a half-hour explanation. Not that I'm bitter or anything. ) :
I digress (what else is new?)...
Five years past our stroll through Rose Garden and it looks like I have yet more stories to tell which wouldn't fit with the tone and flavor of my little glimmer of 'post a naughty picture and tell a sexy story' Garden of hope. The garden is having problems. We're fighting the changing seasons. And whatever resembled summer - the remembered reason to run around the house naked - soon was forgotten.
Bring on the seasons that have become my life, now including a couple years into real menopause - no longer perimenopause, but real, full-fledged premature menopause (I am *so* allowed to call it premature! I'm still in my forties! It's freaking premature, folks!)
And if my fouled up brain doesn't do me in with forgetting all items of sexual nature or with complete lack of desire to be intimate... it's a lack of hormones and another hot flash... and buggered up memory issues... and a brush with infidelity. (Yeah, "brush" - like the gentle swipe of a semi-truck's front bumper hitting you standing along the road trying to figure out where the hell you are or why you're there... see? Light little brush).
Buckle up and get ready for me to over-share, hopefully so you can see you're not alone (please, Lord, let me know someone else out in the world has experienced at least one of these things and handled it just as crappy as I have.)
I mean, "Yo! Check out the changing seasons along the weedy path through this Bed of Rose's!":
Introduction to Menopause, HSDD, and Me
Summer (HSDS/HSDD Updated Suggestion List, Hot Flash Flashing, I Dream of Chains / Dreams Before Chains, Oh Doing One-Self, Clit Whisperer, Write Erotica - How To Grow Your Own Rose, Dominatrix Dream, Box of Morons, Visualization - CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy), Ejaculate, Dream Redoubt, Gotcha, Good Bad Girl)
Fall (Not Again, Just Don't Say It, Failing Menopause Homework)
Winter (Intimacy Lost, His Side of the Bed, Infidelity Roulette, Infidelity Marital, X's and O's)
Spring (Quietly, Query Non-HSDD Spouse, Tutor Dream, Menopause Sucks, Got Balls?, Unanswered Prayers, Conclusion - Planting Seeds)

... and of course, the Truth and Consequences to all of it (No matter how painful, uncomfortable, or just how much over-sharing has to be done - whatever it takes to help you folks experience this with me).
Somewhere in that mess, I hope you can find something useful in your relationship... if nothing else, maybe I can be a good 'bad example' for the train-wreck in your life. Or at the very least, provide a quick laugh at what I thought was a good idea at the time. Because if we're not laughing at some of this stuff, I'm pretty sure I'd be crying.

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