Broken-Mended

Broken-Mended is a recount of my childhood through adulthood. NO HOPES, NO DREAMS, NO SELF-CONFIDENCE AND FOR THE MOST PART WISHING FOR THE COURAGE TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE AT TIMES

I knew I couldn't do that to my mom so I basically "Flat-Lined" through life, doing anything to stay one step ahead of the pain. Wearing a mask of, "No WorriesEverything will be ok." No affection to anyone around me in my familyNo hugs, No "I love you" to anyone in or around me

When a child is abused by the "man" so called "father," that was supposed to love me, wreaks havoc on all levelsLOTS OF SELF- HATRED, LOTS OF PRAYING STARTING AT THE AGE OF TWO OR THREE FOR GOD TO PLEASE TAKE ME HOMEPLEASE

I just wasn't good enough for anything

When I was eight-teen, while waterskiing, I hit a log and went downthey took me to the hospital as my knee was a messeverything was torn upall muscles, ligaments, tendons and my kneecap was shattered. They wanted to amputate my leg from above the knee, however back then they didn't have prosthetic legs that went above the knee so I said NO. Just try to come up with somethingPLEASEwe can always take it off later, but we can NEVER put it back on!

Broken-Mended started out as just a journal I wrote in the time I spent in bed with a blown-out knee at forty-one years of ageas I had already had sixteen surgeries and after research, I knew I needed a total knee replacement but my orthopedic surgeon of so many years did not want to do it

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