We didn't look at cute interns not at their personal assets, anyway and we didn't look at one another. It couldn't help but bring me on to wonder; there were plenty of places Alec could look at cute guys to his heart's content, but for all our honesty and openness that was a conversation we hadn't ventured. I didn't know if he wanted to be out in a general way, or even to his family, and I was guilty of not asking the question. I told myself it hardly mattered. We had commissions enough to severely limit our social lives for months to come, and even before launching our own partnership had thrown us into this life we had none of us cruised or partied as we once had. I could tell myself that, sure. But I knew I was avoiding the question because I didn't want the answer, because Alec out surely meant Alec cruising if only in curiosity to see who else could hit his buttons now that he had acknowledged that I did and Alec cruising scared me in ways I didn't want to admit