This book is about a journey of finding my heavenly father and the transformational power of that experience. At the age of seventeen, I watched my father's casket being lowered into the ground. I was devastated by the thought that I no longer had a father. After a year of destructive indulgence trying to numb my grief and anger, I became a follower of Jesus. I loved Jesus and I loved the intimate work of the Holy Spirit. My theology was right about loving God as father, but I figured that he was probably as demanding and disapproving as my natural father had been. After thirty years in ministry leadership, I experienced God's love as a father. In a moment, I felt his love pour into my heart and his arms embrace me like the father in Jesus' parable who embraced the returning son.