Truth is its very painful to be abused emotionally because those wounds are not visible. There is one thing about trust, once you break it, you can never really fix it, yes darling I have learnt that it's a tough universe only tigers survive but even they find it hard sometimes, even they find it hard to remain in control. That is life, one big emotional roller coaster. My name is Tendai; I was once a good faithful wife with intentions of having a big family. I will take through the journey before I decided to forgive, my emotions and regrets. It is said that don't let the world change the good person you are. I tried hard but I failed. I wanted revenge; I wanted everyone to feel the pain I felt and the betrayal". I felt justified to hurt people as they have hurt me too. My emotions were just all over the place.