"I sat with Amy as she struggled to breathe.
I sat with her as she took her last breath.
I sat with her as her heart beat its last.
I sat with her as the nurses cleaned her and put her in a bag.
I sat with her until the transport guys took her away.
I am more afraid of NOT grieving than I am of grief."
With these words and the general thought that "we don't talk about death enough," author John R. Worsley began posting on Facebook about what it was like to suddenly lose his wife at age 50. He shared specific ways grief was hitting him in the moment and what he missed about her, as well as what he was learning, how he was healing, and, of course, his passionate love for. This is the book of those Facebook posts.
My Heart Has No Home provides a compelling moment-by-moment account of one man's grief after his wife's sudden death: a poignant portrait of loss and the grieving process that anyone can relate to. With a unique and strong voice, John is unstinting in his deep emotional reflections, and achingly honest about his life struggles with his new identity as a widower. Definitely worth a read, this work displays modern masculinity at its best, offering a shining example of friendship and connection, community and mutual support. Inspiring, vulnerable, truthful, sad, and joyful don't miss it.