And all I want in the world is to get my family out of this mess and back to a life we can enjoy together.
Now my son has been born, I am even more determined to put this life behind me. But it's not going to be so easy. With Nadia leading the Serbians, our family is even more tied up with the gang war than before - and extricating ourselves is looking harder and harder with every passing day.
But I am willing to fight, and so is she. We will survive this. We will make a better life for our son - and we will escape the legacy of our families to start fresh. Or die trying.