Richard's Scribblings: A Spiritual Journey

Like many I spent the first fifty years of my life trying to define who I was and living a life that I felt this self-made person deserved. I was fortunate to have many wonderful experiences in those first fifty years and also had many instances of immature behavior that resulted in divorces and the accompanying sense of personal failure. I was fortunate to have a positive attitude and always "picked myself up, dusted myself off, and started over again". At age fifty-one I experienced the end of my accumulated life as the self-made man and started a journey that is still unfolding.

My insane thinking, a result in part of my addiction to alcohol, led to behavior that resulted in my third divorce. This was very traumatic for me because my old self had vowed to make this marriage last till my death and its demise was shattering. I dealt with desires to kill myself and finally an analyst suggested I try AA as a means of showing my wife that I was serious about change. I did this but to no avail, the divorce proceeded on schedule. However, I did not leave AA, I felt I belonged among my fellow drunks and that life was getting better without the booze. I went back to church but soon realized why I had left in the first place. I began reading one metaphysical book a week and finally was led to "A Course in Miracles". It has become my primary spiritual path to peace of mind and its teachings continue to increase the peace, love and joy in my life. So began my new life.

This book contains musings written over the last fifteen years of my spiritual journey. There are articles, dialogues, ideas, complete and incomplete.

One of the great lessons on my journey is that I know nothing. I have found that thinking I know something has led me right into wrong-mindedness and eventually loss of peace of mind and therefore making it impossible to extend the love that I am. This thought continues to humble me and makes my mind more open to guidance and results in more peace of mind.

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