There are many things you never intended to do, but somehow there are forces (controlling forces in the air) that want to take advantage of your ignorance of the real battle. Ephesians 6:12 tells us:
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
Our battles are essentially spiritual. It will therefore require a spiritual approach to have our desired victory.
There's a spiritual dimension to those habits, those controls, those depressive moods; they are organised by hell, just to disconnect you from source. Let the LORD purge you with this book.