This is a book about war, religion, nudism, Catholicism, marriage and divorce, drugs and addictions, lies and deception, love and more accurately, unconditional love, destiny and purpose, hate, rape, weakness and strength, abuse and torture, death, tattoos, piercings, chaos and the constant search for order, fears, phobias and fetishes, control, farms and travels to foreign countries, beauty and cruelty, an affair, working and toiling to provide, abortions, a childhood lost and a child lost, very little peace and loads of anxiety, self-doubt, psychologists, psychiatrists and psychics, demons, urologists, somnologists and death, oncologists, gastroenterologists, hospitals, neurologists, neurosurgeons, gynecologists, and sickbays, overdoses and suicides, crazy fun, off-road adventures, wild parties, isolation and loneliness, sex and the absence thereof, but simply, just from my side, for once.