I was totally used to calling the shots. Women kind of fell at my feet not the other way around. I didn't like to brag, but all of us were really good-looking and none of us had any issues with attracting the opposite sex (Even Tom who didn't actually want them since he was married to a guy) and I could, if I chose, have a different girl on my arm every night of the week. And I did date girls quite a lot. I didn't fall in love with any of them though. If I'm honest, the thought of actually being in a relationship with any of them was quite horrifying. I wasn't into that sort of nonsense. Relationships were for other people grown ups not me I wasn't like everyone else. I didn't think I was really capable of it. Toby was the lovable one I wasn't. I'd felt this way since well, since forever really but definitely since Mum died. Mum had loved me unconditionally. She saw past all the flaws in all of her children even me.