Under The Bloated Banyan: My Journey From Awakening to Disillusionment Within a High-Demand Group offers a vulnerable and raw perspective that goes to the emotional core of why high-demand groups and their charismatic leaders are so alluring. Author Jelelle Awen shares her intense journey and recovery after leaving an intense spiritual group called Emotional Body Enlightenment (EBE). After close to five years of being in the group's inner circle and working with others as a paid facilitator, she chose love for the Divine and her husband after being given a harsh ultimatum to either leave him or the group. Offered mostly through journals and blog entries that she actually wrote during the time, this book covers a six-year period of experiences with love, healing, intense pain, awakenings, and self discovery during and after EBE. This book is for anyone who has experienced such a group, is drawn to joining one, has a friend or relative in one, or is just curious about this sort of experience.