Unpredictable Stock Triggered by Uncontrollable Emotions

An autobiographical story of the too frequent lows and at times seemingly unachievable highs of surviving addiction.

I was finally stabilized, it was time to leave my home in North Dakota and travel cross country. But the relapses kept hitting including in Alabama, Florida, and Las Vegas. Will stability be possible or will the history of addiction win?

There are happy points in my journey: meeting previously unknown family, gainful employment, and revisiting a lost love. However, bouts of relapse keep interrupting my progress which is torpedoed by COVID-19. Everywhere feels like a War Zone, and a deep depression ensues. A search for professional help to handle the depression doesn't go well. It's time I take a stand, for myself, my health, and my sanity. Help finally comes in the form of a Higher Power. God has been watching over me the whole time, I was just too lost to recognize His presence.

Will I stay sober? Will I stay connected to family? Can my faith sustain me in my journey? These are the key questions needing solved on my perilously life journey. A true story which hopefully will lend hope to others experiencing addiction.

About the Author

Billy Beans was born in Rapid City, South Dakota but raised in New Rockford, North Dakota. As a former addict in the recovery phase, he now holds himself to a higher moral standard than during his Dark Addiction Days. His motivation also evolved from supporting his addiction to helping others. Billy realizes the fallacy of perfection but still strives to better himself through new challenges and experiences.

Lucky to be alive and finally experiencing milestone achievements including: a car and driver's license, improved credit score, independent living, meeting his biological father, surviving the grief of his brother's death, and now writing. Billy loves and is proud of himself rather than suffering self-hatred. He has most certainly learned from his mistakes.

Billy is writing this book to help others struggling with addiction and to educate their loved ones on how to provide support. Changing for the better isn't an impossible task, the author is living proof. If you are struggling with addiction, you are NOT alone.

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